I couldn't do this anymore. I know I should be thankful that Angel doesn't go all evil when we make love, but I was always dreaming of a man who would love me completely and would be happy with me. I know this may be the heartless bitch in me, but that is just what I always wanted.
I know that Angel is hurt, and I don't blame him for being angry, and I know that things haven't been easy with all that has gone on, but I have to do what I have to do. I just hope that one day he is able to be happy in his...unlife.
I was offered a job in New York, one that I am shocked was even an option, why not take it. Nothing here ever seemed to work, I couldn't stay here and see Angel daily, and daddy was gone, so really this was the only way to go. The job is a high ranking detectives job, one that involves working with a select squad that doesn't handle every day cases. I don't know what all it involves, but if it is less supernatural then it is better.
Unable to talk to Angel about this, I did the most heartless thing I could, not that it was intentional, but it was what I had to do. I left him a letter, one that explained how I felt, that I loved him so much, but this wasn't going to work, that he didn't seem happy with me, and since that is the case I just needed to move on. I explained about the job, that it is a once in a life time oppertunity and that I would be helping people who needed me.
I left the note on his desk, they were out on a case, the hotel was empty as usual, so it was easy to get in and out without anyone stopping me. I also left the keys and a small box with the things he had given me. I didn't feel right keeping these things, however there is one thing I didn't give back, one thing that I couldn't give back, I needed to have one piece of us...call me disgustingly sentimental. I kept a silver necklace he gave me, it had a celtic knot on it, something that was special to him, and a emerald in the center. I would always keep this close, it would be the one thing to remember him by, maybe one day we can meet again, but for now, its best if I go.